Favourite Quote from Albert Einstein:
Gravitation cannot be held responsible for people falling in love
How on earth can you explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?
Put your hand on a stove for a minute and it seems like an hour
Sit with that special girl for an hour and it seems like a minute
That's relativity

I'm the most luckiest and happiest girl on this Earth:) Thank you.
I have got volunteering for "Run for Hope" later @ 530am, so I shouldn't sleep now right.

DAMN AT 1.26AM I'M STILL LEFT WITH SO MUCH TO STUDY FOR CS2 AND I HAVE NOT COMPLETED MY BCS MICROSOFT EXCEL PROJECT. For the first time in my 17years of life, I have to study and for the 2nd time in my 16years (1st- p5) of life, my birthday is a school day. Amazing. And no no no, no cursing or swearing words on my birthday. However, I KNOW IM STILL GONNA ENJOY MY DAY TMRW HAHAHAHA. Bye got to run!

happy birthday

Finally I'm 17. I'm finally 17, together with Mike, Darren & Danial! Hahah happy birthday guys, one more year to the key of doing legal stuffs and getting a driving license? The past 16years of my life have been more than awesome, met and knew some really great friends I never thought I would. Life, has been fair to me, in a way. Many lessons learnt and experiences gained throughout these 16years. There is still more to come, i know. In any case, I know I will enjoy my day tmrw:)

I will survive.

Eye.eats.candy:( Try decoding that. Haha time to wake up from your dream Weifen.

LIFE IS UNFAIR

Every year without fail, whenever my birthday is approaching, I know the same old thing will happen all over again. Its the reason why I don't look forward to my birthday, because no matter what decision I make, I know I'm going to hurt at least someone in the process. And that is the last thing I ever wanted to do. Believe me, its making me cranky and stressed up (even though I know dozens of people wouldn't believe my words) Life is like a straw, it sucks.

Sometimes, goodbye is the second chance.

Who said coincidences do happen? I say, everything is predestined. All my life, I had kept far too much stuffs and secrets to myself. So much till i don't know whats real and whats not anymore. Seems like my world is crashing down. Its so mentally exhausting... Weifen, please please please just remember your god damn set of princples. Its the only way for you to save yourself from all. This time round, I'm really out of my mind.

Who are you? Who am I? Who are we? Believe me, i'm going out of my mind.

Come on Weifen, just follow the principles you had set for yourself few years back. Its the only way for you to save yourself.

When you start to lose yourself, what do you do?

If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it

But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Or even in the dark

Paramore - Brick By Boring Brick

Its a sunny day today. Great! Haha, back home from meeting Yanseng & Xinkai! Sorry i woke up late. We had brunch together at prata house and then went off to Amk to get something. Arcade then -daytona (LOL). Xk went work while yan and I headed home together. Was pretty good since all 3 of us catch up on our lives. Xk bought a new orange casing for his blackberry bold. We agreed it looks like some gummy cause it was very orangey! Thanks for today man!:)

School was interesting yesterday hahaha cause we went kite flying and the guys played soccer. Somewhere near Shengxiang's house. NB (not bad), we should hang out like this often hahaha. But everyone was dead tired, cause this week had been busy (comm skills). I'm freaking tired now still 'cause i woke up at 830am?!?! Okay shall post photos. I think i should stop spamming my blog with photos. Wanting is really efficient in sending photos i must say ^^

Oh yes. To Mike, Darren & Danial, we can start counting down already HAHAHA

Oui, i managed to survive 9am - 6pm thursday. Was god damn freaking tired. Anyway, made more new friends in world issues and french tutorials today! Awesome. Geog Travel for Tourism was pretty cool, discussing case studies questions online. Microecons was not as bad as it was last week. Ah tmrw's breakfast with yan and xk is cancelled:( Got lots of stuffs to catch up on. According to weiming, we are going kite flying tmrw!!! With my poly mates. Wonder if thats true HAHA. Oh yes budi clan, hilarious Okay i met up with Germaine today for lunch in school! Was great:) Hope to see her next week, prolly with sam? Its been raining the whole day today. Nice... Okay la time for sleep, maybe not, gotta chat with ting and xk. Goodnight!

Though everything's been said and done, i still...

confusion

Okay i'm just gonna spend one minute typing this entry and i'm off to continue studying for tmrw's french tutorial. Its kind of pissing me off and to make things worse i am ike damn super freaking tired and exhausted and would really want to go to sleep now. School's on at 9am tmrw all the way till 6pm, i hate thursdays the most. Most of my friends do, actually. One big huge sigh. However, on a lighter note, i'm meeting Germaine tmrw for lunch since our timetable is close to being the same hooray! Plus, i'm also meeting Sam-Rah next week who is finally free for soccer trainings for a month hooray! Two's Better Than One by Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift (Y) I think i'm gonna die tmrw thanks to lack of sleep!!! Hah, nonsense. Okay got to run (1min's up) so till next time then!

Listen to "Time for Miracles" by Adam Lambert! Its good. I wanna watch the movie soon too, haha.

Look out of your window. Its a full moon tonight.

Monday blues? Well, not really. Hahah. Am alone at Bishan Library now. Love the peace and quiet. School was alright today but it rained the whole day! Who likes rainy days when you have to head out? I helped a blind man with directions today. It suddenly occured to me. How come there are so many facilities catering to the disabled and wheelchair-bound people (such as handicap toilets, and buses) but why aren't there are much facilites made for the blind? Its kind of weird. Does it mean that the blind doesn't need help? All they can rely on is just their instincts and feel of touch. Not meant to pinpoint this issue to anyone... Just my two cents' worth. Comm skills tmrw, have yet to complete my handouts. Big sigh. Got to run, bye.

I'M HUNGRY

Oh, how i love the rain on nights like this. As if it was to match my current mood. Why aren't all my bestfriends available when i need to talk to someone desperately?

I think it's every time I walk into a room
a silence so sudden that I seem to hear it (Smiles turn to frowns)
Contact saying that you are the rain on their parade.

And how long could you hang on to a word?
Tell me, how long could you hang on to a word?
I'm not the one that you want, I'll only let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself'

Or maybe it's all eyes on him
in love with ego and intention
the eyes that are just begging me for more.
This is gone and I can see it
your head is full of words,
full of words that don't mean anything.

And how long could you hang on to a word? Tell me, how long could you hang on to a word?

-Chiodos
Intensity in Ten Cities
(I love this song)

Its always easier said than done.
Truth is, we never really knew what it means.

Life’s like a straw. It sucks



Alright, a week of school has finally ended. I'm so tired and i'm lagging behind on most of the lectures:( Sigh. So these days, it was frustrating, tiring and annoying. However, somehow i still enjoy school, thanks to my friends ;) French tutorial was great yesterday.. Je suis singapourienne :) Hehe. Today's school ended early. Comm skills peer tutoring, crashed world issues lecture, headed to BCS lecture. Today's world issues got me thinking really alot. Culture modernization, economic globalisation, transnational transparency, social adaptation. Hahaha, just got me thinking really alot......... Kay, lunch with Germaine soon! I'm tired despite sleeping the whole afternoon and a little bit of evening away.

Philophobia, yes no?

So earlier on I was at my house downstairs chatting with Yanseng & Xinkai for awhile. Happy xk who has finished his olevels subjects and all the best to yan for his remaining papers. And of course to chew, ed & zak as well. For Khai, please mug hard for your upcoming A'levels!!!! Hmm. After much chatting and analyzing, i have come to a conclusion. Humans can never understand and accept "Infidelity". I mean, who will?!?! Always be strong, so that nothing can hurt you. Great, time for some french and micro econs tutorial (if i have the time sigh). School, workload and responsibility are too much to handle at times.

Intensity in ten cities

And how long could you hang on to a word?
Tell me, how long could you hang on to a word?
I'm not the one that you want, I'll always let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself'
I'm not the one that you want, I'll always let you down.
And I'm pretty sure that you've caught on.
And you can say that 'Oh, I'm just feeling sorry for myself'
(If that's how you feel, then what's there to do? I'll keep this feeling in my heart but when you look in my eyes, you will know the truth.)


Chiodos
Intensity in Ten Cities

Fuck i'm so broke this month i'm not gonna eat out so i can save money:(

happy birthday natasha

movies

CHANNING TATUM IS SO HOT! HAHAHA
I have to catch 5oodays of summer and My Sister's Keeper. I have read my sister's keeper last year and it was an awesome book, because the ending was so unexpected. Its a good book and i hope its gonna be a good film too. 5oodays of summer is a comedy (my faves hahaha) and i have to watch it! Think i'm gonna watch it online, if the video manage to load. 2010 seems a pretty good movie too, seems exciting and meaningful :) Another movie i'm anticipating is "Dear John". I read the book last year (& i read it twice) and it was simply fantastic. Turns out that a film was made based on this novel. Its gonna be out on 4March 2010. Yeah quite a long wait, about 6months? Go and wiki on the definition of "dear john" haha. Sarcifices, responsibilities, US soldier, duty, reason are all tags in this movies. In any case, i can't wait for this movie. The ending was so heartbreaking and unexpected, a crazy ending you don't see it coming at all. And Channing Tatum is starring in this movie as the main lead hehe. "A Walk to Remember" is still one of my favourite movies based on the novels nicholas sparks wrote. Sometimes i think part of the reason why people (me) enjoys watching such movies is because of their tragic and sad endings. Such movies talks about great love stories. As irony as it may seem, short-lived happiness are the ones that have the greatest potential to last forever. I guess another reason why people (me) enjoys such movies is because its all too good to be true. We believe that all these will not happen in reality or rather in our lives, therefore we seek comfort/solace (or whatever adjective you wanna insert) in all these movies.

"I finally understood what true love meant... love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be"
Dear John

SCHOOL

Okay i'm back! Realised this is life, can't do anything about it....

BONJOUR!

SO ANYWAY FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL WAS TIRING.
Why??!?!?! Gosh.... my timetable of course! 9 to 6 or 7pm? Haha good luck to me, especially when i live so so so far away from tp.... Anyway, World issues (CDS) is cool!! Hehehe i'm quite looking forward to knowing more about the world. We will be focusing mainly on environment, international conflicts and 3rd world countries i think! I have got 2 CDS this year, which somehow means electives. I'm taking world issues and french too. Okay, talking about french, french is really cool but i had a hard time pronouncing the words! Haha so far we learnt some basic french, i think i really ought to download the audio files. I have a really cute french tutor? haha, her name's Karen! And its not pronounced as "Karen", you know the way you pronounce it in english. Its different. Okay i think she's either a native french or she's from Canada? Haha anyway she's cool and cute. I made some new friends, thanks to my old friends. My new friends are actually friends of my friends. Get it? Hahah.

Well, french lecture was great (Y) We have some french idol competition thingy in nov! Hahah cool shit. Anyway..... we were asked to learn a song? Which is just the chorus part. The song is the video right on top of this entry. Okay it goes like this:

Face a la mer,
J'au rais du gran dir
Face contre terre,
J'au rais pu mou rir

Yeah so it looks like some lyrics you can find in french country songs right? Haha so when she played the video, it was a African-american rapping and we were like SHOCKED?!?! LOL. Then as it went on to the chorus we realised its the right song after all. It wasn't country music, it was more of like a song categorized under "Alternative" as told by Jingxiang. But anyway i had fun and i'm looking forward to understand more about french culture and learn their language :) I hope to learn Japanese or italian next semester! :)

Lunch before BCS lec, omgosh BCS - business computing skills is boring i swear. hahaha and headed town to meet Tinghui! Heheheh :D I bought my mum's present. A wallet! I like! I always like geninue leather stuffs but i know its bad cause they kill animals or something right??!?! :/ Anyway my mum likes it and i'm really glad :) Hehehe and did a little tiny bit of shopping. I'm saving up this month! Talked alot to ting as usual hehehe okayyyyyyy tmrw im going to natasha's house! Goodnight!

oh... Happy birthday Mummmy! I love you forever and ever.

Life

School's gonna start at 4pm today, comm skills 2, boring subject. That explains why i had the time to be here. I had a really busy week. It was tiring but it was okay. Skipped school yesterday and went to mandai columbarium to send my grandfather off on his last journey. Nothing is left of my grandfather except old photographs and memories. He was burned, leaving behind ashes. Even Auntie Kris who worked for them for 19years cried. It was also her last time serving him his favourite breakfast - wholemeal bread with butter and a cup of milo. She had done this for 19years and indeed it has become a routine. Sigh, everything was sad.... Okay gotta have my lunch and collect cookies from eechen. Goodbye

Dedication (read if you want only)

There was a man. He grew up and decided to be a sailor. He was a tall, sturdy and handsome man. He spent almost half of his life sailing to different parts of the world. Eventually, he sailed to Singapore and decided to settle down there. Over at Singapore, he met a woman. They both got married and pledged their vows in the eyes of Heaven and Earth, their family and friends. Soon after, she gave birth to a baby boy. The baby boy had many siblings after that, who often ganged up to make their parents angry. However, they also added joy to the family. The woman was a dutiful wife, a fierce mother and a great cook. She opened a restuarant selling chinese food and business was very brisk, thanks to her awesome cooking skills. The man continued being a sailor, bringing home money every now and then. With all the experience gained and all the lesson learnt during his sailing career, he became a knowlegable person. He placed great emphasis on moral values, therefore his children were people who had intergity despite the fact that they might do very well in school.

Eventually the children all grew up and had their own career and family. It was time for them to retire. Just like any family, they were living in bliss and happiness. Three generations living under a rooft. As the saying goes, happiness is short-lived, and it was so true in their case. 18years ago, in 1991, the woman fell sick and passed away. Everyone was devasted, but nobody was more heartbroken than the man. Life still goes on though. He had a healthy lifestyle, exercise was necessary in his life. Fishes were his favourite and he never ever have more than 3 meals a day. Breakfast, lunch and dinner were eaten at a proper time. 17years later, 2009, he fell sick too, and had to leave the world to look for his life partner who left him.

He was a generous man, who always offered his help and tries his utmost best.
He was a magnanimous man, who accepted a malay man as his son-in-law. We all know how conservative society was in the past.
He survived World War 1 and World War 2, just because at that time he knew he wanted to live.

Few days ago, when he was in ICU, and had tubes inserted into every part of his body, lying unconscious for 2days and 2nights, he still woke up. He was suffering in silent pain, unable to talk, unable to tell anyone how he is hurting physically and emotionally. On the 3rd day, he woke up. Why? Because he wanted to say his last words, to hold his children and grandchildren's hands, to see them for the one last time. His fighting spirit was something to commend on, something that deserves admiration.

Earlier on, thursday, 15oct09, all of us went to see him for the one last time. I'm so sorry my family can't be there when you breathed your last, i'm really really sorry..... When I saw you lying down there with your eyes closed, not breathing or any tubes inserted in your body, i knew you were gone, gone to look for grandma. You were still fine the other day i went to visit you, still mouthing words, and asking my dad to take care of us. I cried a bucketful of tears. It had been years since i cried for losing someone. The pain was too much to take.

He lived till an age of 94, with 10 children, 13 grandchildren and 6 great grandchildren. This post is dedicated to you, gong gong. I know you will be happy together with po po in heaven. You are a great husband, an awesome father, a benevolet grandfather and a responsible sailor. I love you, and rest in peace. You will never be forgotten, you will always live in our heart.

Seems like i've lost all the courage to hold on to everything. So what do i do now?

FUCK LAH SCREW TIME :@ :'( :( :O :S :l 8ol :'( :'(

October is such a birthday month. Happy birthday to all october babies.
2 - Weijang
3 - Jason Lim
10 - Rachel
12 - Shawn pang & Christopher
13 - Hezwan & Tinghui
14 - Junxiu & Kahming
21 - Peiyee
21 - Jeremy
24 - Mummy & Xueqin
25 - Natasha
:)

I'm tired, blog tmr, its time for sleep.

Henderson waves

Okay so here's the thing, its the last week of holidays for all poly students except rp next week so i want my schedule to be full everyday? HAHAHA. I need to meet yiqi and jolene, my clique, tinghui and sri, venice and khai, my poly mates, shanlin, pri school friends and samantha?????????????? I guess i wanna meet them all by the end of next week. Can't wait to see them!:) Yay i'm damn happy nowwwwww!

Finally collected my pay for my F1. Weijie drove me and ryan to tiong bahru plaza to collect our pay. Wanting had collected it while sihui was overseas so its just the three of us left. Saw xinkai at house downstairs again while waiting hahaha! Guess its hard not to bump into each other when we live in the same block? So i had dinner with Weijie at chomp chomp. Yup i think we ate quite alot when its just the 2 of us? Yeah talked about lots of stuffs too this guy is damn good at telling jokes and riddles hahaha. Then we went to punggol end, somewhere near punggol jetty. There were people fishing too. And that place is damnnnnnnnnnn familar! I think it was the place i took the boat with my other friends to outward bound singapore at pulau ubin :) The last time i had been there was 2years ago.... Couldn't help but to get reminded of that year? Sec3, which is 2years ago. When we bade goodbye to our groupmates from other schools with crying faces. Hahaha, ah those wonderful memories. Thanks alot Weijie for driving me home, thanks:) (You did a kind deed again today) Thanks for making me laugh!

Yesterday, thursday, went to town to meetup with Stella! Yes, been sucha long time since it was just the two of us spending time together.... Very long ago indeed. Had lunch together, hahaha i'm always having fast food with her? Hahah, watched "The Ugly Truth" at shaw house. Honestly, that show had so much sexual contents but its very funny! And its so true! Always liked comedies! Then we walked around Ion and eventually settled down at Dr Coffee Cafe to chill. Talked about lots of stuffs too, stuffs from sec1, from sec2. Those times. How can i ever forget? Had dinner together at "The Ship Restaurant & Bar". Not bad:) She had Escagot! In total she ate 5snails, yes snails!! LOL. I was browsing through their menu and i found out something. You know whats inside their Irish coffee? Its irish whiskey and cream. How about their Russian coffee? Its Russian vodka and cream. Its damn weird, i mean, isn't this supposed to contain caffeine instead of alcohol?! Haha. Yeah, had a great time today cause its just the two of us. Towards this friend of mine, i'm filled with regrets and mixed feelings, but somehow i know its best to let things remain this way. Hope to see her soon.

Okay i'm going for a shower now, goodnight!

For Yan, Shan and Coke. Qx live too far!! hahahaha

Give me piles and piles of work so that I can be distracted, even if it will only last for a second.

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